I was definitely a poop head today. I must have woke up on the wrong side of the bed? That's just a lame excuse for being a poop head. I woke up wanting to go to work because I needed something to keep me busy. And when I finally got to work, I was irritable within 5 minutes.. for no good reason. Ridiculous I tell you. After leaving work it was time to spend the evening with the fam. We had dinner in which Kelly and I ate most of it ourselves... or I did... and then watched Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. I was sooo tired during the movie and when it was over it was only 8:30pm. But that was prime Kari time. Ask any of my previous roommates and they will tell you that it's like a Kari variety show 8pm and on. I dance, I sing and more. If you're lucky enough... you just may experience it one day.
Today was the first dance competition of the season for my wonderful Jenison dancers. I was very excited for them, but then I was also extremely selfish and had an irritable attitude all day because I miss it. Those girls, that program, coaching, dance... has been my life for four years. And now it's not. It's weird. I don't regret my decision because I know this is where God wants me... but it's just weird. I guess I can't let go of it because one, I love those girls. They were my family for four years. Two, I feel like I'm not being productive with my time and using the talents God has given me. I love working hard and most of all I love being with people I care about and doing things for them... but right now everything is still somewhat new. I'm still figuring out people, friends, relationships, where my life is going... and when I have moments of uncertainty or feelings of worthlessness, it gets frustrating. But tomorrow is a new day and it's a day for me to glorify God... not myself.
And so now I sit here... awake... unable to sleep because I have issues. I will probably eat some food and then put an episode of Grey's Anatomy on so I can lay here and let my mind be still. It gets a little out of control at night time and GA can shut it all out so I eventually fall asleep. Hopefully I'll wake up on the right side of the bed (or couch) tomorrow so I can be non-poop head Kari again.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Better late than never?
Well... I kept putting off an update because I felt like there was so much to say and I didn't want to type it all (or bore you all). Since it is 2:30am and I'm still not asleep, I figured now was the perfect time for an update. Most likely, I won't even say what was on my mind before but nevertheless you're getting an update.
Most importantly, I'm amazed at what God is showing me and teaching me. I always wanted to believe I was this genuine, dedicated, wonderful person... and don't get me wrong... there is some truth to that. But I'm overwhelmed by the realization that I'm also a selfish, prideful, lazy person. For the first time in a long time, or maybe ever, I was actually broken by my sin and in awe of what a forgiving, loving Father I have. These last several weeks have been eye opening and challenging to say the least.
Since I moved states and started this blog to keep you "updated" I figured I'd fill this entry with answers to all the typical questions I get at this stage in my life.
1. Where are you living? Why did you move?
I'm living in Wake Forest, North Carolina with mi madre. Yep, that's right. I'm 24 and I moved back in with mother dearest. I'm not ashamed. It's great to be able to spend time with the most amazing woman I know after being away for 6 years. I look forward to moving out again, but I'm grateful for this (rent free) time at home. I moved because I knew it was time for a change. As much as I loved my coaching job and the independence I had in Grand Rapids... I needed to be with family. It wasn't the easiest adjustment at first and I still miss parts of my "old life" but I'm loving this new "chapter."
2. Where are you working? What are you doing?
I am still working in coffee land at good ole Starbucks. At first I hated this question because I felt like that wasn't a good enough answer. But this is where God has me right now and that's good enough for me. This is just a tiny part in the big picture and I look forward to the next step. Are there days where I'm frustrated? Of course... but I know that God has given me talents and abilities and I'm excited to use them.
3. How's the love life? or lack there of...
Also another question I usually hate, but the answer is simple. I'm single and I'm okay with that. Again, this is where God has me and that's good enough for me. I know I sound like a broken record, but it's the truth. Sure, I'd love to fall in love... who wouldn't... but it's not my goal or focus. I'm enjoying getting to know new friends and when it happens... it happens.
Those are the 3 questions I get and those are my answers. Maybe I'll come up with some more Q&A for future posts. Feel free to ask and maybe I'll dish.
Most importantly, I'm amazed at what God is showing me and teaching me. I always wanted to believe I was this genuine, dedicated, wonderful person... and don't get me wrong... there is some truth to that. But I'm overwhelmed by the realization that I'm also a selfish, prideful, lazy person. For the first time in a long time, or maybe ever, I was actually broken by my sin and in awe of what a forgiving, loving Father I have. These last several weeks have been eye opening and challenging to say the least.
Since I moved states and started this blog to keep you "updated" I figured I'd fill this entry with answers to all the typical questions I get at this stage in my life.
1. Where are you living? Why did you move?
I'm living in Wake Forest, North Carolina with mi madre. Yep, that's right. I'm 24 and I moved back in with mother dearest. I'm not ashamed. It's great to be able to spend time with the most amazing woman I know after being away for 6 years. I look forward to moving out again, but I'm grateful for this (rent free) time at home. I moved because I knew it was time for a change. As much as I loved my coaching job and the independence I had in Grand Rapids... I needed to be with family. It wasn't the easiest adjustment at first and I still miss parts of my "old life" but I'm loving this new "chapter."
2. Where are you working? What are you doing?
I am still working in coffee land at good ole Starbucks. At first I hated this question because I felt like that wasn't a good enough answer. But this is where God has me right now and that's good enough for me. This is just a tiny part in the big picture and I look forward to the next step. Are there days where I'm frustrated? Of course... but I know that God has given me talents and abilities and I'm excited to use them.
3. How's the love life? or lack there of...
Also another question I usually hate, but the answer is simple. I'm single and I'm okay with that. Again, this is where God has me and that's good enough for me. I know I sound like a broken record, but it's the truth. Sure, I'd love to fall in love... who wouldn't... but it's not my goal or focus. I'm enjoying getting to know new friends and when it happens... it happens.
Those are the 3 questions I get and those are my answers. Maybe I'll come up with some more Q&A for future posts. Feel free to ask and maybe I'll dish.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Totally Tubular
Another week has come to an end and a good one it was!!! Last Sunday I was able to go to church in the morning which was extremely encouraging. Then I celebrated with a girl from work and her friends for her 25th birthday. (My first social outing with new friends.. haha.. a little sad that it excites me so)
I worked on Monday and then it was time to get ready for a lil trip. Since I was oh so smart and drank coffee at work.. I couldn't sleep. Big surprise! Instead, I decided to jump in the car and head out at 3am for Maryland. This was a good idea until about 4:30am when I finally got sleepy. I took a little 45 minute cat nap under a light post at a rest stop. Don't tell my mother... I'm sure she'd freak. ha. Then I was back on my way and things were great until the GPS decided to stop working after I followed her orders and passed the exit the mapquest directions told me to go. Fantastic! I did a little navigating of my own and I finally made it to my destination.. Glen Burnie, MD to see my person. It was great to be reunited and I was able to stay with her and the fiance Tues-Fri. We got lost in downtown Baltimore, spent some time at the inner harbor, ate yummy food, lots of singing/dancing/laughing/and great random comments, movies, pumpkin carving, and hair dying. You know you're completely comfortable with someone (and yourself) when you can play a game at the ages of 23 and 24 which consists of... trying to mirror the other persons random faces during commercials to entertain yourselves. We're quite special... which is why we're besties for life!
The road trip back home was much smoother and I spent the evening with the fam. Saturday it was back to work and then I tried to watch football with my brother but ended up falling asleep during the 2nd quarter. I guess that's what happens when you get 2 hours of sleep.
Today was an opener for me at Sbux. But it was great because I worked with my twin! Let me just say that I always wanted a twin when I was a little girl. It took me several years to realize that it would never be possible and I was heartbroken! HOWEVER... we have found each other. We're totally tubular bar partners (coffee bar that is), we've already brought sexy back so now we're bringing the lingo back because we're definitely rad. Whenever we're together it's such a gas. ha. Well today was our first "date" outside of work.. but there will be plenty more to come because this is a life bond. A lil shout out to my Twin A from your Twin K. Hope your birthday was far out!
I should probably try to get some sleep seeing as how tomorrow will be another busy day. Mother dearest and I will be hittin the road to visit her sister at their lake house. YAY. It's going to be another good week...
Praising him...
I worked on Monday and then it was time to get ready for a lil trip. Since I was oh so smart and drank coffee at work.. I couldn't sleep. Big surprise! Instead, I decided to jump in the car and head out at 3am for Maryland. This was a good idea until about 4:30am when I finally got sleepy. I took a little 45 minute cat nap under a light post at a rest stop. Don't tell my mother... I'm sure she'd freak. ha. Then I was back on my way and things were great until the GPS decided to stop working after I followed her orders and passed the exit the mapquest directions told me to go. Fantastic! I did a little navigating of my own and I finally made it to my destination.. Glen Burnie, MD to see my person. It was great to be reunited and I was able to stay with her and the fiance Tues-Fri. We got lost in downtown Baltimore, spent some time at the inner harbor, ate yummy food, lots of singing/dancing/laughing/and great random comments, movies, pumpkin carving, and hair dying. You know you're completely comfortable with someone (and yourself) when you can play a game at the ages of 23 and 24 which consists of... trying to mirror the other persons random faces during commercials to entertain yourselves. We're quite special... which is why we're besties for life!
The road trip back home was much smoother and I spent the evening with the fam. Saturday it was back to work and then I tried to watch football with my brother but ended up falling asleep during the 2nd quarter. I guess that's what happens when you get 2 hours of sleep.
Today was an opener for me at Sbux. But it was great because I worked with my twin! Let me just say that I always wanted a twin when I was a little girl. It took me several years to realize that it would never be possible and I was heartbroken! HOWEVER... we have found each other. We're totally tubular bar partners (coffee bar that is), we've already brought sexy back so now we're bringing the lingo back because we're definitely rad. Whenever we're together it's such a gas. ha. Well today was our first "date" outside of work.. but there will be plenty more to come because this is a life bond. A lil shout out to my Twin A from your Twin K. Hope your birthday was far out!
I should probably try to get some sleep seeing as how tomorrow will be another busy day. Mother dearest and I will be hittin the road to visit her sister at their lake house. YAY. It's going to be another good week...
Praising him...
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Two in a row?
I have been sitting here writing on facebook and I figure, why not make it two posts in a row? Crazy, I know. I think the reason I haven't been writing is because I've been frustrated at life. I really don't have a reason to be..
I made the decision to move and as much as I miss coaching, the dancers and friends I spent my time with in Grand Rapids and my family... I know I made the right move. I just have to be patient and really pray that God will lead me where he wants. I had been living on my own, doing my own thing, trying to please everyone else for 6 years. I have a lot of great memories, lots of people I will never forget, and I know that God was able to use me in people's lives... but now comes the hard part. I have to completely trust him as I'm "starting over" and stop trying to do this on my own. It hasn't been working.
This will be an exciting week to come!! yay for fun times :)
I made the decision to move and as much as I miss coaching, the dancers and friends I spent my time with in Grand Rapids and my family... I know I made the right move. I just have to be patient and really pray that God will lead me where he wants. I had been living on my own, doing my own thing, trying to please everyone else for 6 years. I have a lot of great memories, lots of people I will never forget, and I know that God was able to use me in people's lives... but now comes the hard part. I have to completely trust him as I'm "starting over" and stop trying to do this on my own. It hasn't been working.
This will be an exciting week to come!! yay for fun times :)
Friday, October 3, 2008
Smart cookie
Don't have anything too exciting to report. I spend my days working or hanging out with the fam. I did go to dinner with a guy the other night. That was a nice change of pace. This whole adult world, moving states and figuring out what to do with your life... not as "magical" and as easy as I thought it was going to be. I don't know how or when I became the girl that didn't have a "plan" or didn't know what to do. I just spent $140 to take the GRE in a month. I thought I was smart enough... but after doing some practice tests, I realize I've been out of practice for a while. Uh oh.. one month to study might be a little crazy but we'll see. I can't be afraid of failure... I just have to go for it.
Tonight I made my first bonfire all on my own. We cooked some weiners and brats on the fire and of course we followed that with s'mores. No games of chubby bunny tonight. Between the senior citizen, quad boy, and chronic food spitter outter... I'd say I have them beat. We created limericks which somehow usually ended up not making sense or somewhat foul, reminisced of childhood memories, and talked about our first kiss. Typical crazy nights in the O'Brien household.
Well... I'm tired of looking at this computer screen from doing practice problems. I'm laying my head on the pillow and watching something that will take me away to my ever so lovely dreamland. Sweet dreams.
Tonight I made my first bonfire all on my own. We cooked some weiners and brats on the fire and of course we followed that with s'mores. No games of chubby bunny tonight. Between the senior citizen, quad boy, and chronic food spitter outter... I'd say I have them beat. We created limericks which somehow usually ended up not making sense or somewhat foul, reminisced of childhood memories, and talked about our first kiss. Typical crazy nights in the O'Brien household.
Well... I'm tired of looking at this computer screen from doing practice problems. I'm laying my head on the pillow and watching something that will take me away to my ever so lovely dreamland. Sweet dreams.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Back later... 6 days later
Today was a good day... yesterday not so much. I had a meeting at Duke this morning about the nursing program that I'm going to be applying for. The thought of going back to school excites me. I'm a smart girl; I'm not going to lie. I want to be challenged and I can't wait for a new experience. I always said I wanted to go to Duke, Princeton or Yale... well here's my chance.
Spent several hours in my mom's classroom this evening organizing all her supplies. It's a little strange how much enjoyment I get out of organizing. After I was all finished with the large cabinet and had everything categorized, labeled and neat... I just stood there and admired it. ha.
I'm seriously contemplating trying to get involved in ballroom dancing. Those who know me, obviously know I enjoy dancing and it's a big part of who I am. I had an intro to ballroom in college and I just love it. I think it all comes down to the creativity, detail and organization of dancing that just sucks me right in.
I'm in a sappy mood so I'm watching one of my favorite chick flicks. "If you're a bird... I'm a bird"
My mind is everywhere right now and I'm not going to even begin to let it all spill out on here. Sorry folks, I just can't do it. Although you did get to experience my randomness above. I think I better just put my head on the pillow and hopefully I'll fall asleep soon...
Spent several hours in my mom's classroom this evening organizing all her supplies. It's a little strange how much enjoyment I get out of organizing. After I was all finished with the large cabinet and had everything categorized, labeled and neat... I just stood there and admired it. ha.
I'm seriously contemplating trying to get involved in ballroom dancing. Those who know me, obviously know I enjoy dancing and it's a big part of who I am. I had an intro to ballroom in college and I just love it. I think it all comes down to the creativity, detail and organization of dancing that just sucks me right in.
I'm in a sappy mood so I'm watching one of my favorite chick flicks. "If you're a bird... I'm a bird"
My mind is everywhere right now and I'm not going to even begin to let it all spill out on here. Sorry folks, I just can't do it. Although you did get to experience my randomness above. I think I better just put my head on the pillow and hopefully I'll fall asleep soon...
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Friends?
Today is a good day.. so far.. and I believe it will only get better. I went into Starbucks at 6:45 this morning and it ended up being busy, which is great! I'm having lots of fun with my co-workers because I can just be my sarcastic, goofy self and they love it. ha. I mean who wouldn't? I'm finally starting to feel a little "settled".. not like I'm on vacation anymore. Don't get me wrong, I still miss my MI family, friends and dancers soooooo much... but I know I'm starting a new life here. I'm going to make a phone call here in a bit about meeting with someone at Duke. I figure.. I need to just think about what I really like and DO IT. I tried to teach my dancers about self confidence and working hard for what you want... so why don't I do that for myself? I need to stop worrying about fitting this mold, a timeline of when I'm supposed to have a certain job or get married, or taking out loans if I want to go back to school. I don't know why it took me this long to figure all that out and actually do something about it. ha. oh well.
Well I must head out to go to the store and my mom's school. I'm her assistant today. She needs a lil help sometimes. Don't we all? Maybe I'll be back later...
Well I must head out to go to the store and my mom's school. I'm her assistant today. She needs a lil help sometimes. Don't we all? Maybe I'll be back later...
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